Thursday, November 27, 2008

窗外有蓝天


踏出GSO 的大门,心情很低落。习惯性的抬头寻找一片蓝,却失望了。天空灰沉沉的,乌云密布,眼看就快下雨了。我加快脚步走向车子。才刚钻进车厢,雨就劈哩啪啦的落下来了。豆大的雨点打在车镜上,密密集集地渐渐汇成一道道的水迹。鼻头酸酸的,很努力克制着想哭的冲动。耳边响起了刚才的对话。
“We have not yet received the renomination from your faculty. That’s why your thesis is not sent out.”
“What? Do you mean that my thesis has been sitting on your desk for the past 5 months?”
“Yes.”
原来我白等了5个月。
“but my supervisor has submitted the new examiners list three months ago.”
“I don’t know. We haven’t receive anything yet. I’m still waiting for the feedback from your faculty.”
“Can anyone tell me what’s wrong now?My supervisor reassures me that she has sent the report, long long time ago. But you said you didn’t receive it. Has the letter gone missing? Or the bugs eat it up?”
“I’ll check with your faculty again.”
“when can I get the answer?”
“………..”
“can I have a date?”
“I’m not sure……..”
“How long do I have to wait?”
“…………….”
“I’ll call you tomorrow.”
“next week.”
“Then I’ll call you next week.”
有没有搞错?太离谱了吧!我可怜的论文经过漫长的5个月竟然还没被送出去批改。我到底得罪了谁嘛你们要这样对我?难道真的要我从交论文那一刻起就得天天拨打夺命追魂call你们才会把问题解决吗?都怪自己错信了人。都怪自己太大意了。
“这不是你的错。相信别人是一种美德。”
怎么会在最沮丧的时候想起你?
“来嘛。。。笑一笑。。。别紧绷着脸,问题终会有解决的时候。”
对。这种制度下产生的问题与人为的疏忽存在已久。我也不想再去追究谁该负责,只想要快点解决问题。
“当你无法在相信别人时,就必须相信自己,”
只能靠自己了。
窗外的雨势渐渐转小,我把车开往学院的行政楼。在被人指上指下,如球般被踢来踢去后,终算有了点头绪。拨了通电话给指导教授,简略地说明了问题所在,也再度向她确认新的名单。她的反应比我还激烈。嘿!该生气的人是我吧!反而还得听她发牢骚。真的很无奈。
“心情不好时,看看窗外吧!” 你曾经说过。
走出行政楼,雨已停了。雨过天晴的天空,蓝得特别清澈。

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